Clean date July 16 2015, It’s wasn’t about finding a bottom it was about making a choice to put the shovel down. My biggest problem was self will. ” I’m going to do what I want when I want, right now ” not willing to change, after many times over dosing, only to leave the ED for that one more. I spiritual became dead. I felt God left me, unworthy, angry and self pity. I stumbled into a Celebrate recovery meeting and realized I left God. All I had to do was ask for help, drop my pride and being willing to change. It is a daily thing to pray for the willingness to stay in God’s will, and clean. Worth it , #changeispossible.